I'm sitting here in need of something stronger than this tea I'm drinking but I'm fasting until Thursday so coffee is out of the question. I'm tired. Not exhausted, but frustrated. With the position. With the environment. With the cycles. And frankly with myself.
I knew good and well that this season was temporary but I didn't move like it was done. I grew complacent. Yes, I needed rest and I needed to heal. But waiting for someone to strike a magic clock and tell me when to start acting like a winner was my mistake. Now I'm finding myself complaining about the very thing I grew comfortable in. I literally JUST made up my mind to move like I'm already in the promise. It's time to finish and finish strong.
The reason why you can't seem to find peace is because you're starting strong but refusing to finish. Yes, refusing. You choose to keep the doors open. You choose to turn back when it gets hard. You choose to give it another chance when God clearly put an end to it the first time around. You see the vision but can't seem to step into the promise because you're secretly hoping you can take the ashes with you.
Truthfully, it's not up to anyone else to step into your authority and finish it. It's yours. This is YOUR life Queen. Take a moment to reflect on all the things you didn't finish because it was "easier said than done." Now, make up your mind to get it together and finish what you started.